This is probably the longest I have gone without posting anything to this website! Holy smokes. I have been ridiculously busy with life… I have finished school, I’ve started a podcast, I’ve tinkered away at my youtube channel, I have been bouncing around with my relationship status with the same partner, diving right into Al-Anon, navigating drama in my extended family that shook my core understanding of relationships in general, and have just been… drowning with thoughts and rediscovering myself.
That was a loaded first paragraph. The habit of oversharing hasn’t changed one single bit.
I have not posted on this website in a long time not necessarily because I have been too busy, but because I had imported over the entirety of this website from one website hosting company to another and during that process, I somehow broke my wordpress admin which made it impossible for me to log in. I tried fixing it a number of times and ended up just giving up as I just don’t have the time that I used to where I could just throw myself into projects and get lost in them. Anyway, I got to a point where I threw caution to the wind, backed up my SQL database and re-installed wordpress from scratch. I can’t express how happy I was to see my website return to itself when I imported the database!
I am so happy to have this site back! And to have somewhere to just write again… I miss journaling a lot. I do have a paper journal, but it just isn’t the same. I have to choose my words more methodically so that they fit on the paper and so that I can get my thoughts out before I forget them. With this website, I get to just let my fingers flow freely and allow the words, my feelings, and my thoughts just come right out. On top of that, I get to share it with others and sometimes I connect with some really amazing people and make friends with others who I wouldn’t otherwise come to know.
My spare time is limited to a few hours every week or every other week, and is always within a time constraint. Like right now, I only have a few hours before I have to start getting ready for work and have to make dinner and pick my youngest up from daycare. And this time right now is the only time I will have for myself where I will be alone, not working, not doing laundry, not managing a home or bills… This is just time for me. And with that, my lovely friends, I am back! Yay!
I am working on Steps (to health) Podcast lately, much to the dismay of my “partner” who instead of supporting my endeavor has decided that I am prioritizing it over his own wants, which are secretly just small ways of seeing if he can control me, but I see right through that BS 🙂 Sorry that I am prioritizing a hobby/my business (registered and licensed) that may turn into a fun side-gig over rearranging the living room or cleaning up the basement that is mostly full of your own belongings.
Not 😉